The speech by Steve Jobs is sometimes replayed in my mind, "if you still don't find what you are looking for, don't settle, keep on searching" more or less like that. I bet everyone is still looking for what they really want to be.
I have been trying to do different jobs, hearing to friends' experience, trying to get informations. Then, I perceive a seemingly suitable word for me:
"Scientists can be motivated in several ways. Many have a desire to understand why the world is as we see it and how it came to be. They exhibit a strong curiosity about reality. Other motivations are recognition by their peers and prestige, or the desire to apply scientific knowledge for the benefit of people's health, the nations, the world, nature or industries (academic scientist and industrial scientist). Scientists tend to be less motivated by direct financial reward for their work than other careers. As a result, scientific researchers often accept lower average salaries when compared with many other professions which require a similar amount of training and qualification." (Source: Wikipedia)
A friend of mine used to call me "professor!" everytime I passed by her home after school. I always get annoyed at that time because you definitely know how a sterotype look of a professor is: shabby white hair, thick eyeglasses, ... Yeah eyeglasses. I used to wear eyeglasses starting from 4th grade of elementary school. You must have been surprised with this. But yeah indeed. I felt so happy like never before when I can see the world without eyeglasses assistance at all. Thanks to Allah for a huge blessing bestowed upon me. Anyway, it can be referred as bullying but just let say it was a joke.
Then, something came across my mind when my friend telling me about my characteristic during working in an engineering consultant. She said, "you are kind of person who likes challenge. That's what makes you alive. You always be curious in this field." I found my self goes with it when I stayed in Japan. Studying in Japan has opened a bright view of research as a support system for any aspect of life in Japan. The society just like doing research. They like to learn, starting from asking why, then continue to gathering data to find reason behind something. You can see this learning system in small aspect such product design. Even research mindset has been tought to student of early age.
I always be curious on how a great research finding contributes to society life change, how things work, philosophical matter, systematical things. And it does affect society in many aspects, at least I found it in Japan. Not a single of advancement in the world is out of research result.
I wish that I can get chance to be a researcher/scientist soon. Aamiin