A Candle Light

It's been a while not writing... Belakangan ini, saya sempat ngobrol ke beberapa teman dan topiknya tentang menghadapi masa depan, yang berarti menghadapi ketidakpastian. Saya juga sama seperti yang lain, masih terus belajar, tapi di posting kali ini, ingin berbagi pandangan positif yang biasa mama ingatkan kalo saya lagi galau. Dan posting ini juga akan jadi notes buat diri sendiri, kelak nanti mungkin bakal buka posting ini lagi untuk reminder diri sendiri.  Satu hal yang dirasakan ketika saya akan balik ke Indonesia adalah: "kayak apa ya kehidupan nanti setelah di Indonesia ketika pekerjaan di Indonesia pun belum didapatkan, gak jadi memutuskan kerja di Jepang, belum bisa memutuskan melanjutkan S3, nikah juga gak jadi, hilal untuk next imam pun belum ada, rasanya hidup bakalan membosankan, bakalan terasa berat." Bayang-bayang kegelapan pun seakan jelas di depan mata. (lebayy haha) Simply, saya cerita ke mama dan beliau cuma bilang gini, "Gak usah khaw...

Over the past two months, I was overwhelmed by a tough question that everyone may struggle with: "What's the next shot?" Then it leads my mind to arrange my life-plan. Just like a whirlpool, it never ends, because there are many uncertainty that I cannot control over and some parts are worrying. So, I decided to end it up.  Fine. No more overthinking because it just pull me back on my chair, not going anywhere. I come up with conclusion that: There are things that we can control through our efforts and there are things that we cannot control over because we are just human. So why do we have to worry something that we cannot control over? Aa Gym ever said that, we don't have to know every single thing of life because it is perhaps better to not knowing something.  Life indeed shouldn't have to be such a perfect-happy-way but rather to be colored with pain to develop strength. I remember the lecture by Nouman Ali Khan says that "Al...

Someone who used to be close with me ever said to me, "That's okay, young lady. It takes time for you to understand. You are just 25 something." He is indeed 4 years older than me. I started to think, 'is there something wrong with me?' Also, I had a classmate. She is also 4 years older than me. I used to hang out with her. I learned a lot from her about how she sees the world as it is, the human nature, and how to take the life simpler.  So, for short,  we should stay in the middle: not as an extremist nor an independent irresposible type of muslim. We can dream as high as we can, but there is always the boundary as the world works. We can ask Allah for anything and keep believing that it would come true. Something that makes us to be persistant is that being patient of the process; we need to understand that there is nothing best in this world without process; the law of casuality. Moreover, Allah opens wide door for those who trust him and beg him a ce...

Sebuah kata yang memiliki arti yang mendalam bahkan dapat menjadi tolak-ukur seseorang. Gue mungkin bukan orang yang sepenuhnya capable  untuk membahas ini secara keseluruhan apalagi melakukannya dengan sempurna, tapi setidaknya gue bisa menilai dari sudut pandang yang baik ( I hope ). Well, no one is perfect, but I respect those who are always struggling for it. Gue sedang tertarik membahas ini karena kebetulan ada kasus yang sangat menggelitik fondasi berpikir gue terhadap Islam.  Pertama-tama, apa sih arti kata adab itu sendiri? Jika dikutip dari kamus bahasa indonesia (KBBI), arti dari adab adalah: Dan beberapa kutipan dari artikel portal Islam: Udah sering lah ya terdengar opini: "dia gimana sih? pengetahuan agamanya oke, kelihatannya taat, tapi menghadapi masalah begitu aja gak gentle." Sayangnya, itu kenyataan yang membuat gue juga bertanya-tanya: "trus apa gunanya agama yang selama ini dia yakini?" Pasti akan ada orang yang berk...